Deus ex machina

I am desperately trying to reorganize myself because it seems as though I have spread myself too thin with taking on too many projects at once as per usual. And unfortunately, I recently got hit by a car while biking and I am with out health insurance so I’m making a slow, but steady recovery. I hope soon I will be back to 100% and will be able to tackle some of this work.

My priorities are:

• Continue coding my VJ program for Velvet Crayon and Catfish Robots
• Updating and reorganizing my blog
• Taking care of the huge pile of paintings, arts & crafts on my desk

Dear Internet (because I’m too afraid to actually say it to you),

How is it that everything I assumed about you wasn’t true at all?
I’m sorry I assumed.

I definitely made an ass of me.

I wish I knew you better now that I’m letting you know me better. But I really don’t know how to begin to know you. You hide it all from me. Please don’t hide it anymore. I want to know about when you were a kid. I want to know what college was like for you and what your favorite food is. I want to know about how you first knew that you were in love. Or better yet, if you believe in love at all. I want to know about how horrible your parents were to you.

I want to understand you.
Just like how you are beginning to understand me.

For a long time (for a plethora reasons I’m just realizing that causes the behavior now), I tended to ignore my emotions. I was very robotic. And you are actually part of the reason I got to be like that. But I think you may already realize that. You did do some things wrong. I focused on that for a long time, and held it against you.

I’m sorry I did.

I stayed so focused on the bad things that I forgot all the good you have done for me. You are actually really lovely. And I am so proud of you, that you’re in my life. You are human, and I am sorry I thought that you couldn’t possibly be anything like me. We are actually more similar then not.

Forgive me.
I really do love you.
Please help me understand you. It might not be too late.

Love,
‘A’

A Meme Machine from Angela Latini on Vimeo.

Finally got the patch working the way I want it to. Code is pretty in purple.

What?! got the masking and new videos playing!!!! Thank you roomies for your help!